Friday, November 22, 2013

A quick post on unrest, elections and press freedom.


I wrote a post back in June describing some unrest that had begun brewing in this central part of Mozambique. To make a long story very short, the long-time opposition party, RENAMO, starting kicking up a fuss about election laws and made a number of demands that the ruling party, FRELIMO did not want to meet. Many believe that RENAMO is mostly concerned with getting its share of recent mineral wealth, while others think that its leader simply felt he was becoming irrelevant and wanted to regain political importance. Here is a still quick, but more detailed overview (in Portuguese, I will keep looking for a good English version).
Since June, attacks have continued, off and on, mostly confined to Sofala province, with a few in the provinces to the north. A government/military convoy has been escorting all traffic that passes over a particularly dangerous part of Mozambique’s only north-south highway, the EN1. On October 21, government forces surrounded and raided RENAMO’s main camp, failing to capture the opposition leader, but provoking RENAMO to call off the 1992 Rome Peace Accords that put an end to 16 years of civil war. Since then, there have been numerous attacks on vehicles on the EN1, including those being escorted by the military.
Much of the political conflict behind the violence surrounded the municipal elections to be held November 20. RENAMO boycotted the elections, not running a candidate in any of the 53 municipalities. For some time, RENAMO claimed it would not even let the elections be held if its demands were not met. People in the central region were living in a state of fear, not knowing if or when the conflicts would begin to spread from Sofala, not knowing if they would be able to vote, and in general not actually knowing what was happening.
You see, I want to give you lots of links to stories about what has been happening, but I face two problems in doing that. The first is language: most of you reading this are in the US and don’t speak Portuguese, so I would rather provide English language links. But, the international coverage of the conflicts here has been very limited. When articles have been published, they tend to lack a certain nuance: “RENAMO Declares End to 1992 Peace Deal.” “RENAMO Denies Government Invitation to Dialogue.” RENAMO declared the end to the peace deal after the government forces had surrounded and attacked their headquarters. Shortly after this, government forces also attacked their political offices in the city of Beira; offices occupied by civilian workers of a still-legitimate political party. RENAMO refused to meet for dialogue, at least in part, because the government continues to deny their requests for the presence of neutral mediators and continues to raid any location where they think RENAMO’s leader may be hiding.
I in NO WAY support the actions of RENAMO or those acting in RENAMO’s name when they shoot civilians driving on the EN1 or raid medical centers, but the story here is not black-and-white, good-guy/bad-guy, either. Articles that lay all the blame on one side without acknowledging that the government also plays a role are making gross over-simplifications.
People I talk to in my city do not support RENAMO, in fact they don’t support anyone who resorts to violence as a means to express their dissatisfaction. Many have come to support a newer opposition party that started off as a splinter from RENAMO, but that has so far kept its opposition in the political ring: o Movimento Democrático de Moçambique, or MDM. Because the truth is that many people feel that the current government is not supporting their basic democratic freedoms, is not open to hear opposing points of view, and many feel it is moving more in the direction of suppression.
This brings me to the second problem I find in trying to provide you links to articles about what has been going on. Even to provide links to Portuguese-language news, I have very little confidence in the reliability of what is published. Since these conflicts began, fofoca has been spreading like wildfire. Whole villages empty out in a panic because of rumors of RENAMO fighters coming in their direction. People report raids on munitions stores, troop movements, threats via text messages. And every time there is a confrontation between government forces and RENAMO forces, the number of casualties reported by word-of-mouth is much higher than that reported in the news.
The main sources of news on television and print are state-run and here, that means FRELIMO run. There are some independent sources that I have begun to rely on: @Verdade is a free newspaper that relies significantly on citizen reporting. CanalMoz is another. They are both very active on Facebook and Twitter, and express a range of opinions, including some critical of the government. They tend to report conflicts faster than other sources and include “unofficial” numbers of casualties. Consistently, the numbers that come from “official” reports, i.e. state-run media, have been significantly lower than those reported first by independent sources.
However, when I talk with friends and colleagues here, they say that even then independent sources are seriously underreporting the level of conflict and bloodshed in Sofala. People with friends and family there say that there are ongoing fights that never make the news and that the number of casualties has been much, much higher. Because there has been so much fofoca, I didn’t know what to believe. It seemed likely that the truth probably was somewhere in the middle. But I found, as someone used to a culture of 24-hour news, nothing-can-stay-hidden-for-long, papa-razzi, etc., I found it hard to believe that there could be large number of people dying without word getting out.
Then, on Monday, reports started coming out about a truck accident in a town just outside Chimoio. On Saturday, a truck carrying the bodies of soldiers killed in a confrontation with RENAMO had blown a tire and overturned on the highway. Specifically, the truck had been carrying thirty bodies of soldiers killed on the previous day in Muxúnguè. But, the news published by @Verdade on Friday had only reported two deaths and three serious injuries. So, with time, I find myself becoming more and more skeptical of the news being published.


On Wednesday, the municipal elections occurred without major violence. At the last minute, RENAMO announced it would not interfere with voting. Preliminary results show that FRELIMO has won most municipalities, but MDM has won at least two mayor-ships and put in a good showing in many cities. Unfortunately, there were a few violent incidents including tear-gas fired by the military on crowds in at least three cities and live rounds being fired in at least two. Tragically, five deaths have been reported in Quelimane, one of the cities where the opposition candidate was elected mayor. Shots were fired into a crowd that had stayed at the polls to observe the counting process and more were fired the following day into a crowd celebrating the MDM victory.
Crowds stayed at polling stations in many areas, because the people know there is a high chance of fraud. Unfortunately, many reports have been coming out in the days since the election of everything from parties pressuring minors to register to vote illegally, party members arriving at polling stations with piles of pre-filled-out ballots, ballot boxes disappearing and reappearing, to various power cuts during counting. There was even a check written in one opposition-led municipality to purchase the provisional results. There were reports of intimidation and detention of opposition supporters. Basically, there was peace overall, but there were also lots of problems. And I find myself wondering about what isn’t being reported.
I have so much to say about this whole period of conflict and elections, and I will continue to post as I process it, but I am still wrapping up the semester here and short on time. However, I wanted to be sure to get something up today because it is the 13th anniversary of the death of Carlos Cardoso, a Mozambican journalist who was gunned down in the street in Maputo while in the midst of an investigation into corruption. Today, no discussion about press freedom can pass without someone mentioning the name Carlos Cardoso. People still fear reprisal for speaking out against what they perceive as wrong.
I have my criticisms of the American media. I think that Jon Stewart does invaluable work calling out hypocrisy, laziness, bias, etc.  But for the most part, the American media is free to report the stories that need to be reported and when stories fall through the cracks, lots of times it is because of disinterest on the part of the American people. I may have thought that freedom of the press was important before, but I really took it for granted. It has been quite an experience living in a country enduring civil unrest and knowing that there is no real way of getting news that is reliable.
So, more to come on the situation here later, but for now, if you are in the US, go buy a newspaper or email a letter to the editor or read a magazine or call your local news station and give them a tip on a story. I will never take the news for granted again.
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Carlos Cardoso founded the newspaper Metical and ran it until his death in 2000. It continued to be published for a year after he was killed. The entire run of the Metical has been archived here: http://www.cip.org.mz/metical/index.asp, including this report of his murder on November 22, 2000: http://www.cip.org.mz/metical/index.asp.





Friday, November 1, 2013

Some Americans have never met Michael Jackson


A couple of nights ago, I left school after my last class at around 7:00. As I walked out the gate, I paused to say hello to two guys who work at the school and were stopped talking with the guard. Justino works in the library; he’s a big guy, quiet and a little gruff, but chatty once you get to know him. That night he was wearing a t-shirt with, “Remember the Alamo. San Antonio, Texas” emblazoned across the front. He has told me before that he dreams of going to America some day. In fact, he is the first Mozambican I remember saying he wanted to move to America and never come back. Interestingly, most people I meet here who say they want to live abroad explain they want to learn how to make their country better, then come back and put their new knowledge to use. Seriously. The other was Bulha, a small, pleasantly plump man who is about as friendly as they get. He always has questions for me about the US, about my life, about anything and everything. He works evenings and I always love ending the day chatting with him because I can’t help but walk home smiling.
I don’t even remember what we were first talking about, but somehow the conversation led to Justino once again declaring that one day he would move to the US, although this time he got a little more specific, “California! Onde vive Arnold Schwarzenegger!” We all laughed and I told him that I had actually lived in California for a few years. As a matter of fact, I had gone to a state university there when he was governor and so he had signed my diploma! They were appropriately impressed. Then Justino asked, “Is he that big in real life?” I had to admit I had never actually met him. They both looked disappointed, but Justino turned to Bulha and explained that in the US, regular people didn’t always get to meet celebrities. “No?!” Bulha seemed shocked. “No! There are people there who have never met Michael Jackson!”
Now, when we arrived here for training, a lot of PCVs laughed at the fact that we would get asked at least once a week if we knew Justin Bieber. “People here seem to think we are all neighbors with him!” We all giggled about it. Coming from the US, where famous people seem to inhabit a world of their own, it seems a little ridiculous that everyone would know Michael Jackson. And, sure enough, the first day I was at my house in Chimoio, when I introduced myself to the kids next door, the first thing they asked upon learning I was American? “Conhece Justin Bieber??”
But as the conversation with Justino and Bulha continued, it started making more sense. I told them that actually, most people had never met Michael Jackson. In a country as huge as the US, most people never even got near celebrities. Justino, who has had a number of American and other foreign friends, had clearly had these conversations before. He and I explained to Bulha that Mozambique was the size of California, which is only one out of fifty states. This led to a detour into the difference between a state and a province, always a fun one to try to tackle: yes, there are different laws about driving and marriage and any number of different things, depending on where you live. It actually starts to seem pretty crazy after explaining it a few times.
But then we got back to celebrities. I mentioned how in the US, famous people actually had to hide from cameras because people were so interested in everything they do. Justino said he had seen this before on TV. Actors ducking away from photographers following them into restaurants! “It’s not like here!” he said. “Here, you can go to the bar and see all the famous singers, just out having a beer with people.” Of course, if that’s how things work in your experience, why wouldn’t you think it’s likely that many Americans have met Justin Bieber? Why would you assume that famous people travel in exclusive circles, rarely crossing paths with regular folks, if from what you know, popular musicians like a beer at the bar down the street?
This was just another example of the constant “a-ha” moments that come from living in a different culture. Especially when you take the time to talk about differences. When my neighbor asked if I knew Justin Bieber and all I said was, “No,” I walked away thinking it was funny to think I would, and she probably walked away thinking I must not get out much. But having a longer conversation with Justino and Bulha led to us all having a better understanding of each other’s cultures. This is kind of a silly example, but I have had similar experiences about much more significant topics, particularly race.
A couple of months ago, I was at the central market, buying apples. This market is nestled comfortably into the main paragem (bus stop) so it is always noisy and full of kids trying to sell drinks and snacks through the chapa windows and cobradors trying to get you onto their buses. I usually just try to get through the crowds and to the vendors without engaging with all the people yelling, “Hello, sistah! How are you?” This day, as I rounded the corner to my apple guy, a cobrador jumped down from a neighboring chapa and followed me until I stopped to buy my fruit.
He started with the usual aggressively friendly flirting; most of the guys around there lay it on pretty thick: asking for your number before your name, or just renaming you, “Beautiful!” But as I was talking to the apple vendor and laughing off my new admirer’s advances, his manner started to change. He had approached with a somewhat provocative tone, trying to get a reaction out of me. As I rolled with it and laughed instead of getting angry, his tone became friendlier. He eventually asked if I wouldn’t mind buying him an apple, too. He was way too skinny and looked in need of some vitamins, so I did. He started asking me where I was from, what I was doing in Mozambique. As I left the market, he continued to walk with me, chatting.
I explained to him that I was a Peace Corps Volunteer and what that meant. He asked me about my education and where I came from. We talked about how Mozambique still had a lot to do in terms of development. He turned out to be an interesting guy who was really upset about the fact that he hadn’t been able to finish school because he didn’t have the money and had to go to work. He said he had always wanted to learn more and that he liked talking about ideas. Throughout the conversation, he threw in comments about habits of black people and white people. I can’t even remember the specifics, but they were all in the matter-of-fact way that many people here state: black people are this way and white people are this way. My friend Nelo swears that black people can go longer without eating comfortably, it’s just genetic. Or white people don’t like having many kids.
But sometimes it’s much sadder. Things like, white people don’t like marrying black people. Or, I want to marry a white woman because it would bring pride to my family. Black people don’t like to work. These are all things that Mozambicans have told me at various times.
Eventually, my new friend from the apple stand asked me for my number. He had said he wanted to be friends, to talk more often so that he could keep learning. He wanted to learn English. When he asked for my number, I told him I would be happy to give it to him, but I wanted to be clear that it was just to talk, that I had a boyfriend and I would stay faithful to him. He laughed some and gave me a kind of pained look. “It’s because I’m black.” “No!” I assured him. “You could be black, white, brown, orange, it doesn’t matter. It’s just because I have a boyfriend.” He kind of shook his head. “Anyways, what would I do with you?” He explained that he was so broke that, even though he was asking for my number, he didn’t have the money to fix his broken phone. “What would I even do with you? I would have nowhere to bring you.” He gestured at me helplessly, hands open wide and palms facing up. And again he told me it was because he was black.
The thing that broke my heart was that he didn’t seem angry. He was convinced that I didn’t want to be with him because white women don’t like black men like him, but he just seemed resigned about it. He kept telling me that I had been so nice to him. I had given him an apple even though I didn’t know him. When he had first approached me, he seemed to think I would just dismiss him and came on trying to push my buttons. When I was friendly, that quickly disappeared into (over)eagerness to get to know me. By the end of our walk, he seemed nearly in love with me.
It seemed like, in the beginning, he had a clear idea of who I was as the White Woman, which included being dismissive of black men like him. As we kept talking, and I treated him like a regular person, he did the same to me. By the end of our walk, I started getting the feeling that he may never have had an actual conversation with a white woman. He seemed so genuinely surprised that I would be friendly to him. Here in Chimoio, it isn’t unusual to see other white people, but they don’t tend to do a whole lot of mingling with the general population. Most have their own cars, so you rarely see them on a chapa or even walking down the street. They shop mostly at specific stores and even when they are at the market, they frequently drive up and ask someone working there to run and get them things. For a poor guy working odd jobs to get by, he might not have had much cause to come in direct contact with white people, especially if he usually takes the approach he took with me.
His final conclusion that I didn’t want to date him because he was black was heartbreaking, but when I have seen him at the paragem other times, he still runs up to talk to me. I don’t know how to convince him that it isn’t a matter of race, but I am happy that at least some of his apparent feelings that white women will all dismiss him seem to have changed. The whole interaction was a good reminder to me that as a white person in a country that spent years under a repressive colonial regime, every interaction can be loaded with extra meaning. I need to be extra careful about how my actions are interpreted. If I had gotten annoyed with him because I was tired of being hit on while doing my shopping, it would have reinforced all his ideas about how white people feel about him. By taking the time to talk, he walked away with a slightly different idea about white people and I got a reminder about what my presence here represents to some people.
Last Sunday, six of us piled into a chapa at 7:00 am, heading back to Chimoio after a goodbye campout. The bus that stopped to pick us up was nearly full, but someone got into the front seat, two more crammed into a spot facing backwards, nearly on top of the first row of passengers, Alexandra got into the first row, and as I was stepping up, the cobrador gestured to an empty seat in the second row. “Yes, sit by my side, beautiful girl!” said the man next to the open spot, in English. It was early on a Sunday morning. I had spent the night in a tent after an exhausting Saturday and I was too tired to spend 45 minutes nearly in the lap of someone who was already hitting on me. The chapas are packed to the brim and I would have been nestled into this guy’s armpit. I just wasn’t up for it. I quickly crammed into the seat next to Alexandra, our last friend took the perch facing me, our knees intertwined, and the cobrador slammed the door shut.  
As we made our way down the road, I slowly started to tune into the conversation going on in the chapa behind me. The man who had invited me to sit next to him was talking animatedly with the man next to him and the woman behind him. They were switching between Portuguese and Chiute, so I couldn’t catch everything, but the theme quickly became clear: I had negared the seat next to him because he was black and white people didn’t like sitting next to black people. I listened for a little bit, trying to catch the specifics of what they were saying, trying to be sure I was understanding it correctly. Eventually, I realized I couldn’t just leave the situation as it was. Probably, most of the people in the chapa didn’t speak English and didn’t realize what the guy had said to me. Even if they did, they might not have made the connection that his unwelcome attention is what led me to say no to the seat. The guy had annoyed me, but my reaction was just supporting the very ideas I am here trying to combat as a Peace Corps Volunteer.
I turned around, touched his elbow. “Excuse me. I said no to that seat because you said, ‘Come sit next to me, beautiful girl!’ This kind of talk is tiresome and it is too early on a Sunday morning to deal with it,” I explained to him in Portuguese, making sure the rest of the people in the car could understand. There was a short silence, and then the woman behind him spoke up. “Ela tem razão!” – She is right! I smiled and so did he. “I thought it was because I was black!” he replied, holding up his forearm and pinching its skin to demonstrate. “No!” I assured him. “That’s why I wanted to explain. I didn’t want to leave the misunderstanding. It wasn’t this; it was just because of how you were talking to me. That’s not what I want to hear so early on a Sunday morning!” He explained it had just been a joke, and I told him there were no hard feelings. I turned back to the front and listened as they discussed this turn of events.
Later, the chapa was stopped by the transit police and we were quizzed about who we were and what we were doing. We explained we were Peace Corps Volunteers, mostly teachers, chatted with the cop a little and he let us on our way. When we reached our stop in Chimoio, I made sure to say goodbye to the gentleman behind me. “Have a good day, teacher!” he hollered as the bus pulled away.
As a foreigner living within a different culture, I am never anonymous. Preparing for Peace Corps, we are warned that for two years, our lives will be lived in public. That even when we aren’t doing our specific jobs, we are still on duty as representatives of the US. Even though I am in a city, it’s true. As a white American, I stand out. People take notice of what I do. And they may have preconceptions, often based on real evidence gleaned from years of negative interactions between Mozambique and rich westerners. It goes both ways, too. When someone tries to overcharge me, I am quick to assume it is because I am white, while in reality it may just be because I am well dressed. Every conversation I have is loaded with potential for misunderstanding. Some of these misunderstandings are small, like the habits of celebrities in my country, but others are weighty.  But each interaction is also an opportunity for greater understanding, if it is approached with an open mind and a will to learn.

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

The depth of poverty in the HDI's #185


I live in a poor country. The third poorest in the world, according to the Human Development Index. Living here has given me a much more nuanced, textured, tactile understanding of what poverty – and in contrast, wealth – actually means. Technically, the HDI ranking means that Mozambique is the fourth least developed country in the world, as the index is based on measurements of education and health variables, not income. But I have come to understand why, when gauging poverty, these categories make for much more accurate indicators than GDP, per capita GDP, per capita GDP adjusted for purchasing power, consumption per capita, or any other money-based criterion.
All of these measures try to capture the quality of life based on economics: production, income or spending for the country as a whole, divided across the population and taking into account the fact that prices vary greatly from one country to the next. The first problem with these numbers is that they assign a single value to the vastly differing experiences lived within each country. Income inequality is no secret and development economists have created the Gini index to measure inequality within a country, adding a degree of complexity, but still leaving out much of the actual situation lived day-to-day. 
A rainbow over my street in Chimoio
In a country like Mozambique, these measures, along with those of unemployment, also do not take into account that a many people are subsistence farmers. They grow and eat much of their own food, rarely participating in the greater money-based economy happening around them. In some cases, people do not use money, because they have no source of income and there is nothing for them to buy with it. They trade within their community. They build their houses out of terra and capim they harvest locally. It is difficult to see what exactly $579 in “income” per person per year actually means to someone living like this.
It was about this kind of poverty that I came to the Peace Corps expecting to learn: rural villages with little or no electricity and without running water, where life in the city is a dream and development is coming slowly. I thought I would spend two years hauling water from a pump and doing my business in a pit latrine; growing what I could to get through the hungry season; teaching classes of 100 students who walked hours just to pack into a classroom without enough chairs. This would give me a better understanding of the immense challenges faced by a developing country in trying to combat poverty.
Instead, I landed in lovely Chimoio: an urban oasis, when compared with many Peace Corps sites. Here, the streets in the bustling city center are paved. We even have three, count ‘em: 3! stoplights. There are various hotels (one of which even features an elevator), two South African grocery stores, many restaurants featuring exotic fare such as pizza and falafel. We have a large provincial hospital and multiple private clinics for those who can afford their services. 
A few scenes from downtown Chimoio
At the university where I teach we have projectors mounted in most of the classrooms, laptops available from the IT department and two computer labs connected to high-speed internet. We are hi-tech. My colleagues are part of Mozambique’s up-and-coming middle class. As every article written about the country in the last year makes sure to mention, Mozambique’s economy has been one of the fastest growing around, and the quality of life is definitely on its way up for many. Some of my students have cars. Many are the children of politicians, shop owners and other members of Chimoio’s elite. The girls are chique de matar: well-dressed, with shoes matching their belts matching their nail polish.
When other PCVs come to Chimoio, this prosperous element is generally what they see. It is probably the part they notice because it is what contrasts with what they are living at their sites. Also, I live in a nice house. It is spacious, with wood floors, large windows in almost every room and a beautiful yard full of fruit trees. I have a shower, a fridge and ample counter space. So, when I first arrived at site, I will admit I spent some time wondering what I was doing here. I was here two solid months before I started teaching, without any friends in the city, rattling around my too-big house, thinking it might have been a mistake to accept a “non-traditional” Peace Corps site. Most of the houses in my bairro are even nicer than mine. Some neighbors have multiple cars; many have guards.
However, it didn’t take long for me to realize that the situation changes quickly and drastically outside of the city center and my neighborhood. A 10-minute drive to my pedagogical director’s neighborhood and beautiful homes set in well-groomed quintals are reached only by dirt roads that were almost impassibly rutted during the rainy season. A ten-minute walk from my house to my friend Nelo’s home and there aren’t even roads, only dirt paths connecting one mud-brick house to the next. His home has no power and not even a pit latrine; the casa de banho is simply a square of dirt outside the house enclosed by sticks holding up sheets of plastic-wrap. A 15-minute chapa ride out to the preschool founded by a former PCV and most of the mothers do not even speak Portuguese. Right in the center of town, half the people you pass on the street are wearing shirts that are full of holes. Many people have to wear the same two or three shirts they have until they are literally falling apart.
Where the pavement ends down the street from my house
With a little more time, the veneer of prosperity started to fade off the rest of the town, too. I started to understand how deep the roots of poverty go in a country where poor is the rule and rich is the exception. Every aspect I listed above comes with a caveat, some small, but others quite large. The roads are paved, but poorly maintained and lined with trash. The municipal cleaning crew is a gang of women who appear every Wednesday morning to sweep up the dirt that accumulates roadside with brooms made of dried twigs.
Many of the restaurants only offer a few of the dishes listed on their menus because the ingredients for the others just aren’t available. Products in the grocery stores are frequently at or past their expiration date. The stores in town are stocked with cheap, chintzy Chinese goods and, although there are dozens of these stores, they all offer the same products. Quality is not available. Even the “nice” ceramic dishes I bought have manufacturing defects. Mozambique is where they send the seconds.
When it comes to clothes, most of what is available isn’t just seconds, but is used. Just outside of town, Mercado 38 is the center of the region’s calamidades, or used clothing, trade. The market is packed with stalls selling jeans, t-shirts, jackets, suits, dresses, even shoes, all coming from the closets of people in the West. I have found that shopping for jeans there is actually easier than in stores – everything is already broken in! In fact, much of the clothing is very high quality, more so than the few items of (very expensive) newly manufactured clothes you can find at the stores in town. The chique girls at school, even the professors, are wearing secondhand clothing. One of our administrators regularly wears a nice, light blue, short-sleeved button-down shirt, only the discreet but distinctive golden-yellow “M” embroidered on the sleeve giving away that in its first life, it was worn by a McDonald’s manager.
The biggest caveat relates to my school, though. We are big on technology: rooms full of computers, lessons given with Powerpoint slides, a lab for the Engenharia Alimentar(food science) program stocked with the equipment for testing, drying, and packaging food. In the works are both a physics lab and the faculty’s own radio station for use by the Communications students. But what good is all this equipment if no one knows how to use it? Another Dutch volunteer working with the food engineering program just told me that only one professor in the department knows how to use the tools to test for Ph. Much of the equipment sits unused.
The truth of the computer lab is that it has taken the place of a library. We do have a library, but most books that teachers need for their classes aren’t there. At the beginning of the year, our director promised that if any teacher needed a book that wasn’t there, they simply had to request it and it would be ordered. The administrator asked coordinators for lists of the books their departments required and they would be procured together. But then nothing happened. I followed up on a few that I needed for my specific course and was given a vague, “We are working on it.” They asked for lists again at the end of the semester, but again with no results. Shortly before the July break, it became clear that due to renovations and other expenses (including more than 20 new computers for one of the labs), there just wasn’t money for books.  
So, the internet takes the place of textbooks, but not the internet I had during college. That one included access to academic databases and all sorts of great (paid) research content. At my school, we just have the vast, un-curated sprawl of the worldwide web. There is no reference librarian to help the students find the content they need and they have never been taught research skills. We do have three IT guys who are great on the technical side of using computers, but that’s different than knowing how to find the information needed for a specific discipline. These students have never been taught how to paraphrase, how to cite or how to analyze sources. Needless to say, this leads to a lot of plagiarism. 
My university's library: "Silence. Academics thinking."
And this is where the depth of poverty here begins to show. The biggest roadblock in getting the books we need is that they aren’t here in Mozambique. To obtain them, we will have to contact a bookstore in Maputo that will get in touch with another in Portugal and have them shipped into the capital city, from which my school will have to pay to transport them. Seriously. The books needed for basic courses in Communications, Public Administration, Information Technology, don’t exist in this country. My city doesn’t even have a bookstore that could place the order. Even Beira, Mozambique’s second city, doesn’t. We have to go all the way to the capital to have a chance at getting some, but even Maputo doesn’t have most of them. That’s what it means to be a poor country: even those with money have to go abroad to spend it.
Even a school with some financial resources can’t stock its library or find the staff to run its laboratory. If we do get the radio station up and running, I have no idea who will be teaching the students how to run it. And the students who make it to university are the ones living the dream. But, the technology hides the greater truth of the state of higher education. And that’s the nuance of poverty within a poor country. Even the students with some means, even those who came from poverty but worked their way into university, they are all trapped within a educational system where even when it can provide technology, can’t necessarily teach them how to use it.
Similarly, no matter how much money you have, your access to quality healthcare here is limited. As I mentioned, along with the large provincial hospital, where anyone can receive free care of at times dubious quality, Chimoio has a handful of private clinics. Peace Corps has vetted them all and cleared one in particular as the preferred place from PCVs to be treated. The clinic is probably the cleanest building I have been inside in Mozambique. The staff is friendly and attentive, as is the Cuban doctor I saw a few months ago. But the single lab technician only wears gloves sometimes. And when I went in to get two shots, the nurse administering them came within millimeters of pulling the hepatitis vaccine into the syringe already pre-loaded with flu vaccine, stopping only when I saw what was happening and objected in panic-broken Portuguese. If the shots had been ruined, Peace Corps would have had to courier another pair up from Maputo, as there weren’t any in Chimoio. During training, our doctor told the story of a PCV suffering from acute malaria who had to be medevac’ed to South Africa because there was not a single dialysis machine in Mozambique. Those in the emerging middle class still don’t have the resources to access this kind of care.
Manica's Provincial Hospital at the Dia dos Trabalhadores parade
I talked with a Mozambican dentist working at a hospital in Angoche, Nampula who hated her job. She explained that the hospital didn’t have equipment for her to do anything other than pull people’s teeth. Although she had been trained to provide a full range of services, she had been reduced to a single option: yank it out. PCVs in need of dental care are flown to Maputo to see the only PC-approved dentist in the country. Expats in Chimoio see a Zimbabwean who comes into town at times. His trips are announced on a Facebook page dedicated to expats finding and trading resources and services they can’t find locally. 
My students and colleagues are very aware of the state of health and education here and know that things are better in the US. It leads to some very interesting questions that I really struggle to answer. During our first English class this semester, as a casual diagnostic activity, I opened the floor to any questions the students wanted to ask me, as long as they were in English. I expected the usual, “Are you married?” “How many kids do you have?” “Do you like Mozambique?” and I got a few of those, followed by, “In America, when you have a president who finishes his time, he leaves. Here in Africa, they just stay. Look at Robert Mugabe. Why?” Needless to say, I fumbled around for an answer, eventually mumbling something about accountability and then just admitting I didn’t know.
In a later class, we got into discussing malaria and another student asked if we didn’t have mosquitoes in America. I told him that we definitely did, but that none of them carry malaria now, that we had eradicated it. I described the coordinated governmental effort and spraying of insecticide. He listened carefully, paused, and asked, “Well, why can’t we do that in Mozambique? People here are dying.” Luckily, this was one the other students could help me out with. It led to an interesting conversation about resources and political will.
But the most common comments are about education. Students frequently mention that education in Mozambique is in a bad state. Whenever these discussions come up, I remind them that development is a process. They know better than I do that the country is pulling itself out of a deep hole dug by the segregated education system under colonialism. As I wrote in an earlier blog post, “At independence [in 1975], less than 10% of land was being used to grow crops, most of the population was illiterate (over 90%), and there were not even 1,000 indigenous Mozambicans high school graduates. There were 87 doctors in the country, 6 economists, and 2 agronomists.” The nearly 20-years of civil war that followed independence didn’t help much. My university was founded as part of the 1992 peace accords because at the time of the peace negotiations, the only university in the country was located in Maputo, well out of reach of most Mozambicans in the northern and central regions of the vast country. 
A primary school classroom in Dombe, Manica; a secondary school in Manjangue, Gaza; a classroom at my university.
Thus, Mozambique still struggles to find qualified teachers at the primary and secondary levels, never mind university professors. But it is a process and it is getting better. There are many smart, hard-working professors at my school. Some were educated abroad and came back to put that training to work here in Moz. My school pursues as many opportunities for partnerships with institutions that can aid in capacity building as it can. Along with Peace Corps Volunteers (three of us, all with graduate degrees), there is a Horizon 300 Volunteer with years of experience in food engineering who will work with that department for at least the next two years. Food engineering also brings in short term volunteers to give “modules” on specific techniques. We are currently applying for a partnership with an Austrian university to do some across-the-board capacity building. At a national level, the school is partnering with a Dutch program to build an online “blended learning” approach to teaching English.
I do not mean to imply that this African institution needs to bring in European or American specialists to tell it what to do; the best universities in the world continue to form partnerships with other institutions. That’s how you grow better. These kinds of partnerships will hopefully lead to an institution that has both the technology and the local know-how to put it to good use. Hopefully the same will happen for the healthcare system. With investment from Mozambique and partnerships with those who have the means and know-how, there is no reason malaria can’t be eradicated and HIV/AIDS can’t be controlled.
When my students ask about poverty in the US, I try to explain the difference between being poor within a rich country and living in a poor country; how in the US most roads are paved, even in poor areas; how most people have power and running water; where even those living paycheck to paycheck have access to news and books and information. They may be relegated to the emergency room at their local hospital, but the care they find there will probably be competent. Here, the opposite is true: even those with money may be living on a rutted dirt road, with frequent power outages and poor sanitation in their community. The education available to their children is still lacking, even when they can pay for private schools, and they have nearly no access to books to supplement in-school instruction. The same is true for healthcare: money can only get you so far if the equipment and know-how simply don’t exist in your community. 
The clinic in Dombe Sede
This is what the fight against poverty is on a national scale. Not just making sure that the poorest have enough to eat and access to treatment when they are sick. Although this is important, that isn’t the end of the fight. Those who are part of the growing middle class need to have access to the high-quality goods and services that should come with a decent income. Right now, the “wealth gap” between the middle class and the very wealthy is all the larger because of this lack on the supply side.
I don’t want to leave the impression that Mozambique is in a hopeless, desperate position. I only want to convey that sometimes, the physical signs of development and prosperity can be misleading and obscure a deeper need for investment in more than just computers and broadband. A sidewalk bustling with people in well-pressed suits, writing email on smartphones doesn’t necessarily indicate prosperity. I have students with smartphones (usually cheap Chinese knock-offs that break easily) who don’t always have breakfast. But these same students are putting all they have into their educations because they know that that is the key to a better life. Working with them leaves no doubt in my mind that Mozambique will continue on its way up. But it also breaks my heart when I think about how far they would have gone if they had the resources at their disposal that I had throughout my education. They eat up everything they are given: devouring books and picking the brains of everyone they meet. And then they go search out more. They deserve that better life they are working towards.
One of my students presenting his research on evaluation methods at our first Jornada Cientifica

My next post will be much lighter and full of pictures of the awesome kids lessons the English Club has started giving!
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Friday, September 27, 2013

O tempo está a voar! It's been a year!


Today marks exactly one year since I stepped off the plane here in Mozambique. Needless to say, this leads to some reflection about all that I have experienced since arriving and how it has affected me.
One year ago: first views of Maputo from the plane and first day in Hotel Cardoso.
1.     I was raised by a teacher and a principal, a majority of whose friends are also educators, so I have always had a lot of respect for those who dedicate their lives to education; however, working this past year as a teacher has super-charged that respect. Teaching is HARD! Writing a syllabus that covers enough, but not too much; putting together lessons that are challenging, but engaging; earning your students respect while also wanting them to like you; doing what is best for them in the long term without alienating them: every day is an incredible balancing act. Writing tests, grading projects, enforcing deadlines… And I don’t even have to worry about standardized tests or a centralized curriculum!
2.     You don’t have to be fluent in a language to communicate and you don’t have to understand every individual word to understand a person. This is a lesson I first started to learn from being in a relationship with someone who spoke English as a second language, but living in a new language has only reinforced it. My ability to express myself well has always been one of my strengths; whether in speaking or writing, I have always loved the search for the perfect word needed to communicate my thoughts. My father the teacher is also a human dictionary and words have always been a passion for us. The idea of moving somewhere where I would have to start building a vocabulary from the ground up was downright terrifying. But it really hasn’t been that bad. Instead of finding the perfect word, the challenge is now circumlocution: how can I best express myself with my limited choice of words? It turns out this is just as fun. And although it can still be frustrating when I can’t get all the nuances of my thoughts across, it is still possible to get to know people very well when they have the patience to work with you as you learn.
3.     Having fresh fruit growing in your backyard is one of life’s great pleasures.
4.     I have come to appreciate political stability and freedom of the press. I love John Stewart and think he calls out a lot of well-deserving members of the media for not doing their job to hold politicians accountable, but the lack of transparency in the Mozambican government and lack of information provided by the Mozambican media has made me realize how accountable our politicians still are. Over the last six-or-so months, there has been some political instability here and information just isn’t available. Rumors fly and people are left to wonder what is going on or to make up their own versions of events. This situation has also made me come to appreciate how much we are able to take the future for granted in the US.
5.     Sometimes you don’t need to know everything ahead of time or be in control of it all. As I have written before, things around here tend to happen on a much looser schedule. As much as this was an adjustment, I have found that things still tend to work out. And the more I give up my control-freak tendencies, the happier I am. It is just as valuable a skill to be able to go with the flow and adjust as things change as it is to plan things out ahead of time. Similarly, being able to find the right person to take on a responsibility and giving them the support they need to accomplish their tasks is just as important as being able to do many things by yourself.
6.     Making friends with the people you buy things from may get you a better deal occasionally, but will definitely make shopping a more pleasant experience.
7.     When I look over the past year, the times that I have put the work I had planned to do aside in order to have a conversation with a student, go to a cultural event or have lunch with a friend have been some of the most memorable and valuable experiences for me, and I think in many cases, for them. While I am here to teach and to develop secondary projects, I think the times I just get to talk with people are the more important. Peace Corps is about economic development, but it is also about cultural exchange. I am not an engineer who can make a real impact on infrastructure, but I can help get people thinking in a new way. I get to have really fascinating conversations with my students about gender roles, the importance of education, gay rights, responsible consumerism, democracy, freedom of the press… And it is worth turning a schedule in late, straying from lesson plans, delaying replies to emails, etc. to make room for them. The formal activities are a structure to foster these kinds of conversations and, hopefully, to create mechanisms to keep them going once I am gone. Lesson: don’t let your job get in the way of your work.
8.     I am old and that’s okay. No, I am old and I like it. Since I arrived here, I have turned thirty, stopped drinking and I find I spend the little free time I have reading the Economist and knitting hats for babies. Okay, so those last two I have been doing for a while, but I am finding that I no longer need to be out late just because it is Friday night, in fact, I might rather stay in and watch a movie because I have to be up early for English Club. When I turned 30, it gave me a moment to reflect on how much I have grown and changed since college and I realized how awesome getting older is. I find myself to be a much calmer person, able to choose where I want to put my attention and energy, less concerned with what others think of me, able to accept my own strengths and weaknesses. And I feel like I am in a much better place to keep improving as time, hopefully, keeps passing.
9.     I have learned more than I want to about bugs and animals. Including the fact that, when hot enough, chickens will pant. Also, it is possible for dogs to get stuck when doing it.
10. Yoga is the best. I have been living quite happily without sliced bread, but yoga keeps me going every day.
11. You know how everything in the US is fortified with something? Don’t take that for granted. Throughout seven years as a vegetarian in high school and college, I was never anemic. After a few months in Moz, I had to go on iron supplements. Over the years, I have been a proponent of natural foods and a balanced diet, and a detractor of GMO and lots of additives. As a rule, I still prefer food that has fewer ingredients, that hasn’t been filled with hormones and whose genes haven’t been spliced with those of another species. But at the same time, that iron in your flour and iodine in your salt? It’s there for a reason.
12. I have come to appreciate, to a more profound degree, the generosity of the human spirit. First, because of the culture here in Mozambique. Mozambique is the fourth least developed country in the world according to the UN’s Human Development Index. It is ranked 210th out of 229 in per capita GDP.  People here are poor and their lives can be difficult. But if you approach someone for almost any reason while they are eating, you are almost guaranteed to be greeted with, “Servido!” an offer to help yourself to their meal. The culture here is one in which wealth is shared among family, friends and community. While servido is a clearly generous side of this, some PCVs struggle with the flipside: people pediring constantly. The practice of just asking people for their things is still an expression of the same expectation that what you have should be shared with those who have less, but to us it sometimes just seems like begging. [This will probably be expanded into a whole post at a later date. ]
My specific experience with the amazing kids in my English Club has reinforced this feeling. They have grown up in a tough country, a lot of them facing challenges I can’t begin to imagine overcoming. But they all just want to give back. Some were raised orphans and spend their vacations going back to work with the kids in the orphanage. They are in the process of starting a Rotary Youth group to take on more community service projects. They are spending their Saturday’s writing and practicing an anti-drug, pro-education play to perform for a bunch of secondary school students. Along with these kids, I have had the chance to work with a bunch of women who volunteer their time through REDES, organizing activities for teenage girls, trying to keep them in school and teaching them about safe sex.
But just as much as my experience with people here reinforces my faith in humanity, it is the generosity of my friends and family back home that makes me feel this way. Starting with knee-length skirts donated to keep me appropriate by Mozambican standards; continuing with care packages, cards and letters sent to me here; and more than anything else, the frequent words of support conveyed through these, through emails and Facebook messages, text messages and Skype calls: I have been so supported by you all this whole time. And when I have reached out for contributions – books for kids here, or just yesterday, clothing for a Mozambican student studying in the US – the response has been immediate and generous. I mentioned to my teacher-penpal that students here sometimes can’t afford glasses and she immediately responded with an offer to get her students working collecting glasses to send over. The stories from other PCVs are the same: when they reach out for support to build a basketball court or a preschool, to help a neighbor start a business, whatever it is, their friends and family back home pounce on the opportunity to contribute. And this leaves me with the distinct impression that most people out there really want to help those who are worse off. They want to share their wealth and make the world a better place. They just need to be offered the opportunity.
Since I am living in a site where communication back home is relatively easy, I feel like a lot of you have been on this journey with me and it has been made all the better for that. Thanks to my friends and students here and all of you back home, this has been a wonderful year that has flown by. Thank you so much for your engagement, your support, and your encouragement.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Losing control, in a good way


Last Saturday, the Chimoio English Club at UCM made its theatrical debut. It was the provincial Peace Corps-sponsored English Theater competition for Sofala and because the event was held at UCM in Chimoio, the PCV coordinating asked if our club would like to present something. The members are generally much too advanced to compete against secondary school students, but we thought it would be fun for the English Club to present a play and talk a little about what they do to practice and improve their English. 

English Theater: English Club represents as judges!
As I was getting ready to head to campus Saturday morning, I found myself filled with anxiety. I had no reason to be nervous, I kept telling myself. I didn’t have to do anything. All I had to do was bring a few cups and a jar full of flowers to use as props during the first scene. I didn’t have any lines. I hadn’t even been organizing the practices for the last few weeks – I had handed responsibility for that over to one of the club member a few weeks earlier! And I realized that was exactly why I was anxious: I had no control over the results. Peace Corps can be an anxiety-provoking experience and I am coming to realize that the anxiety generally falls into two categories: things for which I am responsible for and things in which I am emotionally invested, but over which I have no control.
Peace Corps is an interesting experiment on this front. I think that people who are drawn to serving as Volunteers tend to be the idealistic, go-getter, let’s-find-a-problem-and-solve-it type. Which is to say “doers” as opposed to delegators. (Or in my case, when I am honest with myself, a control-freak when it comes to things with my name on it!) Then we are thrown out into a situation where our main job is capacity-building, i.e. helping other people learn how to identify and solve problems. This is a much slower process, and for eager PCV’s who realize that two years isn’t actually very long to “get things done,” it can be maddening. But in the end, the point is not to put our name on projects; it is to leave behind communities, organizations, students and colleagues who are more capable of improving their own lives.
Peace Corps itself forces us to start giving up control: we don’t get to choose our program or country of service, nor our sites. Our environments continue to make it clear we have very little to say in how we plan our time. Thought you could tackle that ever-growing pile of laundry this morning? Surprise! The water is out until further notice. Planned on writing a blog post tonight? That will have to wait! Power is out and your computer battery has no charge. Our schools reinforce that lesson. Thought you would draft a test this afternoon? Not so fast! That morning meeting is going all day today. But don’t worry, we ordered in lunch! Semester schedules don’t get set until the weekend before classes start. Sometimes schedules and rooms for exams aren’t set until the day of. It’s enough to make one end every sentence with, “…se Deus quiser.” But for the most part, things move along relatively smoothly. I have become infinitely more able to go with the flow since I got here.
But the more important type of giving up control is related to accepting that our Peace Corps service isn’t about us, isn’t about just getting things done; it’s about helping others do. Frequently, the process is as important, if not more so, than the results. I already wrote about this some as related to our need to put our egos aside to be effective PCVs, but I feel the need to revisit the subject from a slightly different angle, because it is probably the most important thing I am learning here. I am framing it related to Peace Corps, but these lessons also come from being a teacher, participating in team projects, and working with young people; my context just happens to be Peace Corps.
The place where I first starting reaching – no, internalizing – this understanding of my role as an individual capacity-builder was in my English class last semester. I was teaching English to 21 Communications students. It was English 3, but the students were at all different levels – some nearly fluent and others could barely put a sentence together. Some had failed English 1 and/or 2, but because of the way the university works, they still had to continue to the next level; some were taking both 1 and 3 simultaneously. We only had a few copies of the books, which didn’t actually teach the grammar concepts anyways. I had never taught an English class and didn’t really know what I was doing. We met for 90 minutes twice a week, 30 hours total, and most students had little to no exposure to English outside the classroom. When I assigned homework, people usually just copied off of each other and there was very little I could do to stop them. Cheating is a systemic issue here and I decided not to make the destruction of all forms of cabulando my mission. As long as students weren’t blatantly plagiarizing or cheating during tests, I decided to leave that battle to someone else.
So, what to do in that kind of situation? I quickly realized that I would not be teaching these kids to speak, read or write English. There was no way that in that amount of time, with those kinds of resources I would actually be helping them progress very much, no matter my level of experience or talent as a teacher. The ones who would improve would be the ones who were motivated to learn on their own. Those ones I could support and encourage. So I decided that my emphasis wouldn’t be on all the students learning the grammar I was teaching, but on encouraging all the students to feel like they could learn English if they chose to. 

Beyoncé make English more fun!
The first step was just getting them to start using what they already knew, so I tried to make my lessons as participative as possible. I had realized that a lot of students knew words or grammar concepts, but didn’t really understand when to use which verb tense or how to construct more complex sentences. So I just tried to get them talking. If conversations strayed from the day’s lesson, I let them go as long as people continued speaking in English. I gave as much positive feedback as I could and made sure that everyone knew exactly what material would be on the test so that they could actually pass. When I gave reviews, people came and asked questions. When I handed back the first test and announced that everyone had passed, the room erupted in cheers.
There was a noticeable improvement in the level of engagement after that first test. It ended up being a whole lot more fun than drilling them on grammar or being the homework-Gestapo. I don’t know if any of them are now more motivated to keep learning on their own, but in the end, I think that more felt like English was within their reach.
This semester, I am teaching IT students who generally have a much higher proficiency level –about half the class is basically fluent – although a handful are really struggling. This has been an enormous challenge. How do I keep the high-performers’ attention without leaving the others behind completely? I have been trying to use more readings about technology that will help keep them engaged and having them work in mixed-level groups. I let discussions of more advanced topics continue, but try to translate enough that the lower level people still have some idea of what is going on.
But what really keeps me going is reminding myself that it still isn’t all on me. Once again, I can’t make the kids learn English. In the end, it has to come from them. In this context, letting go of control is incredibly freeing. In fact, yesterday our topic was expressing wishes and intentions and I went so far as to give them a reading from a motivational website on the power of setting intentions. It had no IT-related vocab and didn’t actually use much of the grammar of expressing wishes vs. intentions, but I really feel like leading a group chant of “I am going to pass English this semester!” (first in Portuguese to emphasize the power of the statement for those who are not strong in English, then repeatedly in English) was just as valuable as drilling them on how to construct the sentence properly. We had a good discussion on why setting an intention can help accomplish your goals and ended with the affirmation “I will give up wishing and I will take up making intentions. I am determined to have those things that will enhance the happiness and success of my life.” In a culture big on, “if God wills it” thinking, I think it is just as important to convince my students to be more controlling as it is for me to be less controlling.
With the English Club, since the beginning, I have told the students that I would support their efforts, but that it would be their project. It would be OUR English Club, not MINE. They went out and recruited other members, they picked the meeting time; they drive everything forward. I still kick-off the meetings, but hand more and more of the speaking off to members. I find my role to be a focal point for their collective energy and sometimes a sort of a wrangler who gathers them up and nudges them along in a particular direction. My presence means that they are at an official English Club Event, instead of just hanging out with their friends speaking English. (Although I would count myself as a friend of many of them now!) And as I wrote in my last post, I can serve as a link between the group and outside opportunities.

Roof party! Err, I mean, English Club meeting...
Which is what brought us to the theater performance. The Club had already decided at the end of last semester that theater would be a great way to reach out to the greater-Chimoio community to spread their message of, “We dream in English!” while simultaneously practicing their own language skills. So, the Peace Corps competition provided the perfect opportunity to get going on it. I presented them the opportunity, but made it clear that it would be their project: they would write it, they would cast it, they would act in it, they would rehearse it, etc.
So I helped at each phase: I led a brainstorming session to organize their ideas for what message they wanted to convey and how to structure the action. Then, they appointed a writing committee and wrote the play together. I helped facilitate the auditions, but the parts were chosen democratically; after each person who wanted a part read some lines, they left the room and the whole group voted. The day of auditions, a whole bunch of new people came. A handful of parts went to newcomers, including a coup of sorts when two girls were voted into the leads, which had been written as boys!
This was just one of many occasions where giving the club space to make their own decisions and turning responsibilities over to members led to the best outcomes I could have hoped for. After organizing the first couple of rehearsals, I needed to travel for the REDES handover, so I handed off the general management and responsibility for moving things forward to one of the students. Even though I had been telling them it was their project from the beginning, this made me nervous (because I’m a control freak). But when I got back, they had finished writing the last scene, copied the scripts and met to rehearse three times while I was gone.
I didn’t take over on my return, just stopped by each rehearsal, watched them and gave some feedback, usually along the lines of, “Make sure you face front when you are speaking.” They finished off each practice themselves and scheduled their next meeting. Along with the students who had speaking lines, other members kept coming to practice and would help run lines when someone couldn’t make it. When our Teacher ended up having to drop out due to schedule conflicts, another member was able to step in seamlessly. When one of our leads seemed to be letting her nerves get to her, we had someone start learning her lines, just in case. The others eventually asked me to talk to her, but then we sat down as a group to talk it out. They let her know that we were there to support her and wanted her to stay, but needed her to commit. And she did. 

Two fine thespians; the crew gets the set ready.
About a week before the performance, I realized that we need someone to organize the set and props and asked the group at rehearsal that day who would be our “crew.” At first it seemed like no one would, but once I was able to describe the job better, two guys volunteered eagerly. They got right to work that day, moving desks around the classrooms to set each scene. It was another reminder that lots of times, people want the opportunity to contribute, they just need to know how they can help. It’s something that is easy to miss when you keep all the responsibilities to yourself.
Despite rehearsals going well, the morning of the performance, I was nervous. I started running through my head all the things I hadn’t done: I had reminded the performers that they should try to dress the part, but we hadn’t actually done a dress rehearsal. We had only practiced on the stage once, and that was before we had our crew organizing the set. I was nervous they wouldn’t speak loudly enough. I was nervous they would be late. I shouldn’t have let so much go! I should have been more of a taskmaster!
But, guess what? They were superstars. Everyone was there with enough time to run through twice before the performance. Their costumes were perfect. Our nervous leading lady nailed every line. They improvised lines that got huge laughs.  They weren’t part of the competition, but after they performed, they were so excited, you would have thought they had won Tony’s. And I think they deserved them!
And I am so glad I was able to resist the urge to micro-manage and left it mostly up to them. Afterwards, when other PCVs told me how good the play was, I could be the proud mama-hen and say, “Yeah! And they wrote the whole thing themselves!” The student who was managing rehearsals was grinning ear-to-ear all afternoon after the performance. I told him what a great job he did, and he told me how much he had learned from the experience. That’s real-life people management skills he just developed! It ended up being a much more satisfying experience for me than it would have been if I had micromanaged it all. In the end, the product for me wasn’t the play itself, but was the experience the students had with it. 

Superstars!!